Almost Mrs. B

It's hard to believe, but this time in two weeks I will be preparing for my last days of being Ms. Hartleben. I've already had my hair trial and taken my dress to be altered. My make up trial is tonight and I'm really looking forward to it. I get my dress back next week just in time for any last minute alterations. I never realized how crazy planning a wedding is. I've tried so hard to not become "bridezilla" but I think she has arrived, according to Curtis. I told him if everything went my way that she wouldn't have ever shown her crazy face :). We've decided to have an open church wedding. I'm very happy that the church family I have grown up with will be there on my big day, but I have a lot of anxiety about it. As most of you know, my mother rsvp'd "no"to or wedding. I have mixed emotions about it, but because I have pretty much kept to myself about the situation I'm afraid that my church family attending the wedding will think she was not invited, which is absolutely not the case. I care a lot for the men and women in my church that have helped mold me into the person that I am today, and thinking they would think I did that upsets me greatly. But, the best thing and only thing for me to do is give it to God and let him take care of me. And I know He will. It's also hard to believe but summer is almost half over! I've been watching Ashlynn now for about a month. We have a lot of fun. We have fun Friday every week and do something out of the ordinary. So far we have made a really yummy pie (which I almost lost a thumb over), gone to get our nails done, and gone to yard sales. Let me just say, I think... No, I know.... That my best friend and her husband will make some amazing parents. I was fortunate enough to get to spend the afternoon with them the day I took Ashlynn to some yard sales. Ashlynn is quite a shy kid, but really opened up to these two. We both had so much fun with them that day. My best friend's husband even bought her a magic kit he saw her looking at. Made her day and touched my heart. I know my best friend has married a wonderful man, and it makes me so happy. ANYWAY, I'm taking Ashlynn to Blennerhassett Island this Friday and she doesn't know yet. My good friend/step adopted grandfather, Mr. Martin, is going with us too! He doesn't get out and do fun stuff a lot so I'm happy he's going to get out, but I'm really glad he's going just to be with us too! Although Ashlynn and I are having so much fun, I still miss Jack and Keira! I know it's been a long time since I've posted so I just wanted to let you know I'm still alive and doing well! Stressed, but happy and still in love with life and my almost husband. I'll try to blog one more time before the wedding. Plus, I'm sure I'll have a lot to say about my bahelorette party next weekend! Kasey